Wish I could. . .

I’m sure you would have faced this question many a times. . what’s the superpower you wish you had ? Either it came from someone or through self-contemplation. And our answer quite possibly changes from time to time depending on where in life we are.

Right now and for quite sometime in the past since I have started to know my self better, I have always had a tough time with fleeting time. I don’t know if it stems from the fact I’m an introvert, because you know how one thing leads to another.. Being a wallflower who can’t easily put myself out there and make connections, I have a very close knit group of friends who can be counted with my fingers on one hand. And the time I spend with them be it on a fun note or discussing life, is extremely meaningful and valuable.

If that’s how I feel about my friends close to my heart, guess how I feel about my family who are my heart !

My mom and dad. . the reason for my existence. How I wish I’m not in this faraway land and could be surrounded by their warmth and keep receiving their unconditional love every single day so I can continue to grow as a human and be more Present.

My Sai, my love . . . . my life would have been nothing but a Big what-if had we not come together. All the itty-bitty beautiful moments with you are what make my days and life feel full.

My 2 baby girls, my soul walking outside my body. . .the fun, the joy, the colors, the beauty, the calmness, the madness, the life you add to my world. I wouldn’t trade a single minute I spend with you both for anything in the world.

So, that’s a long winded way of coming back to what’s the superpower I wish I had. . I want to be able to freeze time. I love the present moments but I despise when my favorite moments slip thru my fingers, I miss the warmth of hugs when I have to look back at them in pictures, I feel so helpless that my heart aches.

Ha, anyways, while I keep wishing for it, one thing I heard from a friend who genuinely cares for me and saw me hurting when a fun catch up time came to an end was, All good things should come to and end. How cruel, right.

And here’s my way of coping in my tiny world, so, time doesn’t always win - you will not find any clock anywhere in our house. [Oh, don’t worry about the kids. I did teach them how to tell time by putting the good ol’ pen to paper and if that doesn’t work, there’s money set aside for therapy 😉]. I mean, we do have a very beautiful fun cuckoo clock that our family got us from the Black forest itself but it’s set up just for the bird to come out and entertain me & my tiny tot 💚.

All because, I don’t want a constant reminder of, say it with me… fleeting time.